short supply

Jul 22

Posted by: Rachel in: blog, rants

My rope that is. I’m at the end of it. Nothing left. I need a break. I have been in a ridiculously horrible mood for two weeks now. I don’t know what to do, I’m pulling my hair out. Staying at home isn’t getting any better, but taking Caleb out in public is a HUGE challenge. It is not supposed to be as hot this week. Highs in the mid 80s Maybe we’ll try going to a few different parks this week. Where I can turn him loose and not worry about the pond and the road and what he’s breaking or not breaking or falling down on the pavement or down the steps. I’m totally losing my mind. *runs away screaming, waving arms in the air* I may call and cancel his speech therapy for tomorrow. The house is dirty and frankly I don’t feel like cleaning it. I don’t want her to sit in cracker crumbs all over the floor. Piles of stuff everywhere. I just can’t keep all my balls in the air. I always wonder what I’m doing wrong. I only have one kid. I don’t see how people with stair steps manage! I guess you do your best at managing what you have. But right now I couldn’t imagine having another child. That makes me sad. I know I’ll feel more ready down the road, but not today. Today I just prefer to sulk.

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