on the edge

May 18

Posted by: Rachel in: blog, caleb isaiah, family, just another day in paradise, me myself and i, memories, parenting

Last night we went over to Scott’s nephew and his wife’s house to help them put together a beautiful baby crib.  In just forty-five days, we’ll have a new family member.  They are on the brink of parenthood.  I stood there in the kitchen watching my four year old on the floor drinking milk proudly from a cup with no lid, a feat we are currently practicing.  Wasn’t that cup a bottle just a few shorts weeks ago?  Wasn’t I naively standing on the brink of parenthood just a few months before?

There was so much I wanted to tell them.

I wanted to say, you will have to relearn how to do everything. From one handed laundry to eating cold dinner because you had to change a diaper or feed a little one, not to mention trying to squeeze in a shower every few days.  You’ll forget to eat in those first days and weeks because you are in such awe that you made this little being and gave him life.  Watching him sleep is more peaceful than a massage.  Hearing him coo is more entertaining than the TV.   You’ll cry when he gets shots.  You’ll hold your breath when he takes his first steps.  You’ll get mad at him. You’ll get mad at each other.  You’ll make mistakes.  Everyone does.  But you’ll love him more completely than anyone else on this Earth has ever loved any one person.   And you will look at your parents in a different way, because you know now, they love you that much.

But I just smiled as I watched Caleb drinking his milk and listened to the last few notes of the crib mobile  drifting down the hall, barely audible in the kitchen. I simply said, “Don’t blink.  Because it goes by really fast.”

Comments

4 Responses to “on the edge”

    Julie
    May 18th, 2009 6:26 pm

    Boy, doesn’t it. = / My baby will be 6 soon. When did that happen??!

    Dianna
    May 19th, 2009 12:18 am

    I’m guessing after this post that Caleb is going to be an only child for a little while…?

    Rachel
    May 19th, 2009 8:00 am

    Nah, we’ll have another…at some point ;)

    Amber
    May 20th, 2009 8:30 am

    Yay!!!

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