just four years ago

Mar 29

Posted by: Rachel in: blog, caleb isaiah, digital darkroom, family, me myself and i, memories, parenting, photography

I went to the mall to try to induce labor walk.  Nearly every person who came close enough to speak said, “Aww, when are you due?”  “Today!” I answered longingly.

I’m one of those people who enjoyed being pregnant.  Once I got past the morning sickness and started showing, I loved feeling him kicking and moving around inside.  I never once worried about how to take care of a baby.  Somehow, my mind was completely at ease.  I worried more about the delivery than anything.  I look back now, I seemed so young and naive.  Like that was a different person.  And I was really.  Parenthood only leaves a glimpse of your former self.  Sleeping soundly is a thing of the past.  You worry about vaccines and violence in schools instead of clothing and Friday night plans.  You wear a shirt covered in spit up just for the sake of your laundry pile.  You handled tasks you previously thought best left to the Hazmat trained professionals.  But with all these changes in yourself and your life, you find the biggest change of all is the size of your heart.  I never knew how much love a heart could hold until I was a mother.

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One Response to “just four years ago”

    Cynthia
    March 30th, 2009 8:59 pm

    You are number 1 girl You are right !!!

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