good vs evil

Jul 18

Posted by: Rachel in: blog, current events, family, parenting, ramblings

Raising children is hard. But a different sense of the word hard. One that came more unexpected to me for some reason. When I was pregnant, I never worried about how to be a mother. I never worried that I wouldn’t know how to care for a newborn. I can’t say I’d had experience in the field, I just somehow felt like I already knew. Of course I can look back and say, why did I do this or not do that. I should have been more relaxed (ESPECIALLY when it came to breastfeeding). There were plenty of opportunities where I could have been a better mother. But here we are. He’s two now, walking and talking just fine. The aspect that I never thought about though, what caught me semi off-guard… It is hard to bring something so pure and so innocent into this world. A place with so much badness. You want to put your baby in a bubble. I know that sounds cliche-ish. No parent should ever have to bury their child, but thousands do it every day. And only after becoming a parent could I even begin to comprehend how heart wrenching that could be. A family of five became a grieving husband and wife after an car accident in California. Three little lives ended, all under six years old. Madeleine McCann has been missing for 76 days. From Madeleine’s myspace page, I happened upon a website for a girl who disappeared 15 years ago. She was walking from her boyfriend’s house back to her parent’s. It should have taken five minutes. Her now 14 year old son has no memory of his mother. Mothers wave their babies off to fight a war, and never see them again. It is hard to imagine your child in a world with so much pain and suffering. And all you can do is hug them tight and pray. Pray that you never feel what those parents feel. Pray that your babies never have to endure pain in their lives. Wish that you could protect them from the knowledge that bad things do happen.

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